Let me start from the beginning....
Around the end of November I started feeling really tired/depressed worn out. I just attributed it to stress and "winter blues". As the weeks/months went on my symptoms starting getting worse. I just thought it had to do with holiday stress, life stress, really just stress in general. Last year was hard year and I just thought it was all coming to a head. On a side note, I have felt like this before and have gone to the doctor several times over the last few years, but it never really went away. I just always blamed it on my job.
|sometimes you just aren't feelin' it|
At the beginning of the year everything just kept getting worse instead of better. It was like I had PMS xs 10 and it NEVER went away. Another heartbreaking thing that started happening was I was gaining weight. Even though I was still exercising and eating healthy, the weight kept coming on (fast). I decided to go to the doctor. She said if I didn't get any better to come back in a month.
|this isn't Sam, but it does look like him!|
A month later, I was still not feeling any better and I went back to the doctor. I had some blood taken and a few days later I received a call from the doctor's office that my blood test was abnormal and I was referred to an Endocrinologist. The soonest appointment was 5 weeks away. Ugh! It was a long 5 weeks and my symptoms were starting to get worse. I felt totally helpless.
|sometimes you just wanna hide under the covers|
I had been eating healthy and exercising, but avoiding the scale. I felt horrible. My face felt puffy, my joints hurt, I felt irritable, depressed, anxious, just all over blah. From one doctor visit to the next I had gained almost 6 lbs (in about 4 weeks). My doctor was concerned about this and said it would be hard for me to gain that much if I had just stopped working out and ate junk. Total I had gained about 12 pound in about 2 months. I was very frustrated.
Finally I had my appointment with the endocrinologist last week. When I went into the office there was a sign hanging on the wall for "hyperthyroidism". I had almost every single symptom.
- hair loss ( :( )
- unexplained weight gain
- puff face (I had been complaining about this by using these very words!)
- joint aches
It was like everything was starting to fall into place. Remember how I said I had gone to the doctor before? I have actually had similar problems for almost 6 years. Doctors had prescribed antidepressants, anti anxiety medication and one doctor even told me that if I was exercising like I said I would, I would be losing weight. There was always something to blame my symptoms on: stress, work, eating out, taking a day off working out, ect.
Where to go now?
The doctor told me to keep track of what I'm eating, and I had my MRI last week and should be able to get the results soon. Then we will have more information to work off of.
Unfortunately, if I want to lose the weight I am going to have to really focus on working out and eating clean. I really want to be rockin' a cute bikini this summer so I'm definitely going to try my best. It's not just about looking good, I also love the way exercising makes me feel, and I do love healthy foods.
So, I've decided to commit to this blog as an outlet for days I'm feeling frustrated and as a way to keep myself on track. I also want to be there for anyone else who is having similar problems and may need something to relate to. I am DETERMINED to not let this get the best of me. Much to my dismay, if I do get a pill or some other type of treatment to regulate my levels, it won't magically make the weight melt off (darn it!). Nope, I will still have to work just as hard to lose this weight as anyone else. I just won't have to work out twice as hard and lose half as much like I currently do.
I have missed my blog and am so excited to be writing it again! :-) One of the reasons I started this blog was to share my love of great food and exercise and show people that you can eat what you want (in moderation) and still maintain a healthy lifestyle.
Oh, and I can't forget that I love sharing pictures and stories of my fur babes.....
Now that you're updated, stay tuned for more of my regular posts!
Everyone have a great evening!