My first post

Why this blog? I honestly don't know. A few of my friends have blogs, and I like to write so I thought I would give it a try. We'll see how long it lasts :). I'll apologize upfront because I am somewhat "technology impaired" so even though I have great ideas about this blog it may seem a little lacking in the beginning.

Everything in my life is totally upside down right now.  I recently lost my job in April. I worked at the worlds largest telecommunications company for over eight years before I was let go along with many of my close friends and people I have worked with for years. I still have mixed feelings about it. Don't get me wrong, I am so glad to be away from that job you can't even imagine! It's just I had no idea what being unemployed was actually like. Like I said, I had a full time job for over eight years. I figured that having all this time off would be like an ongoing vacation. I imagined getting caught up with things I had put off for years. My house would always be spotless. I would undoubtedly drop weight like crazy now that I had all the time in the world to exercise. Sadly, that isn't what happened. It's weird to have a purpose for eight years and wake up one morning and be faced with the decision "What am I going to do with the rest of my life?" It was so much harder than I could even imagine. For the first couple of days we kind of just detoxed, relaxed and got everything in order. After that, things just go weird. I became so depressed and just lost. I got further and further away from my running that I so desperately loved last summer, and work started piling up around the house. I had no energy and began to get depressed. I realized that my job hadn't been what was taking away all the things I wished I could do and accomplish. It was just an excuse. With my excuse gone, I had to face real issues in my life and I couldn't. Now I am starting to want to face things and work them out rather than avoid them. I am still not really working. I have my real estate license but the market is horrible and, to be completely honest, it is really hard! Another sad part of losing my job is I did not lose the weight. In fact, I gained back most of what I lost last summer. I kept it off until the beginning of this Summer and then most of it came back. I feel absolutely horrible about it. Even though I am trying to run again, I do have nearly the drive or determination I had before. I really hate dieting and talking about weight, but it is so frustrating to be caught up in the vicious weight loss cycle again. UGH! I signed up and paid for the Akron 1/2 marathon and it is 7 weeks away so I hope that motivates me to get my run on! So we shall see how that goes. I plan on blogging about some of my runs in the future.
Even though there are some very serious things I need to figure out I am glad to have the extra time to cuddle with my two favorite dogs, Sam and Daisy. They are my babies and I love them so much! I am grateful to have them in my life.  I never had dogs growing up, and always figured myself more of a cat person, but once I got my dogs it was love at first sight! I guess that is enough for now. I'm sure my upcoming posts will be more exciting! I hope someone actually read this far!